My life has been really miserable lately . I’ve been tryna figure out lots of stuff dealing w/ me . To start off with , let’s talk about friends . I have “friends” , also “bestfriends” , but I just don’t know who’s real anymore . Friends lie about the dumbest stuff&expect you to still trust them , like Tf ?! I HATE liars w/ a passion ! I find myself annoyed w/ the same people over&over . Like some people really irk my soul , but I deal w/ them because I think I need friends to survive . But that’s a lie and I’m done pretending that I like some of these people . Cutting niggahs off for now on , NOT for the games anymore . People just blow me . On to my love life , it’s quite blank right about now . I’ve always declined opportunities because I felt as though I was spoken for , by You , but I guess not . It kills me how I love you way TOO much for my own good , &you barely care . Like shit just blows me entirely . You led me on for so long it’s rediculous . We shared some of the best moments EVER , I’ll NEVER forget , but I guess if you don’t want me someone else will . We would’ve been perfect , but I guess you would rather be w/ some trickasshoe ! But I know I’ll always love you , especially since you’re always at myhouse . Maybe one day we’ll be an US , I kinda look forward to that . Uhm , what else ? I’m bettering myself as a person , but only for MY benefit . I feel no need to change for anyone else since I’m the one who has to live w/ these changes .

(But uhm , I can’t think anymore , so I’ll finish later )